let's face it - i've been lazy.....

**pulls on the cord to start the lawn mower repeatedly**

yeah i'm a slacker

but then there's a lot of crap going on upstairs too...

time to bring back the keyboard and bash the keys for a while

**pulls on the cord to start the mower again and again**

but this time i'll just focus on the positives of each day... i spend enough time moaning and complaining about the shitty stuff.....

so here goes.

26th august 2015

what was good today?

• i ate my daily apple on the way to work
• i acknowledged my possible sleep apnea creeping back, so had a 15 minute nap in the truck when i got to work before going inside
• i helped a very close friend with a job application letter
• i arranged a birthday present for the most important person in my life
• i helped get a small contract over the line at work
• couple of sets of shop drawings for larger projects got approved with minimal fuss
• i posted my creditors forms for the upcoming creditors meeting (let's see if i can get my 720 bucks after 3 years of hoping lol)
• i got contacted about 2 different important events occurring at the moment, which i was hoping to hear from this week
• i have a prospective buyer taking a second inspection this weekend
• i ate the last of my leftover chicken and veg stir fry that i made on monday night
• my boss was kind and funny to me today
• i told people i care about that i love them
• i continue to strive to be a good obedient driver and not speed
• i acknowledged moments of weakness and anxiety and did my best to talk myself through them to friends and myself
• i laughed
• i smiled
• i ate a good lunch
• i breathed deeply and took a step back to relax about things going on around me as best as i could

**continuously and frustratingly pulling on cord to the mower**

so that wasn't terribly difficult... no matter that it's 20:33 and i should be just about in bed... spending at least 5 minutes at the end of each day should be enough to reflect on the positive things..... and looking at the positive side of the lesser positive things.....

**pulls the cord one last time**
BRRMM, BRRMMM, BRRRRMMMMMMMM!!!!!

the mower has started....

time to cut the grass and clean up the upstairs paddock........