high in the sky.....!

been a few days, i know - been a bit slack as i've been city based the last couple days

playing tail end of [everything to lose (armin van buuren mix) - dido]

[saltwater (original mix) - chicane]

i rock.

i had another couple of moments of weakness where anxiety was on the horizon in the far distant..... distant.... umm... well - horzion! lol

i was able to at least pinpoint what i was noticing of my emotions and actions and tried whatever i could do to subside the feelings.

given how good i am feeling at the moment, i think i did alright (never mind the relatively nice news i had earlier this afternoon)

18/09/2015

17:21

*looks to the left out the window as the 17:22 train to wendouree flies past*

partly cloudy, maybe about 13° or so....

good-o bits:

• tidied myself up again with a head buzz cut thingo in the tub and trimmed up the beard a bit
• had a great couple of days with Master and alpha
• got to attend another shibari class on wednesday night - i'm LOVING it - but i do enjoy being the bunny and getting tied up - i'm sure one day i'll be game enough to try doing the actual ties, but i get easily lost with knots (give me a ratchet set any day hahaha)
• got to play board games last night after a nice dinner with marcus and zel - hadn't seen marcus for ages so was nice to see him and get a strong hug from him :-)
• work had it's usual ups and downs but finished on an up which was awesome
• looking forward to ballarat steakhouse dinner tonight with ballan bears and a few of the old crew from back at masters - love you robyn!
• and then a big gathering tomorrow night for my melbourne folk - love to share good times with good people
• got to take Master to run an errand and then deliver him promptly to the airport for his flight home
• i didn't get upset or teary when i dropped him off (sign of strength building - thank you!)
• i got to help alpha with organising some new bi-fold doors at his place :-)
• i get to introduce alpha to a bundle of my friends tomorrow night (next week i get to introduce him and Master to some of my nsw friends yay!!)
• good a good message earlier this afternoon
• paid off gas bill, part of the council rates - bills are always there but i am managing nicely which is a comfort

[let's get down (full intention club mix) - supafly vs fishbowl]

• planning of giving the truck a well deserved, long overdue, desperately needed, everybody wanted it, wash and vaccuum on sunday (hasn't been done since the morning of mardi gras parade and yes - there is still glitter on the dashboard and on the floors)
• speaking of which - enjoying being a part of planning next year's float once again - had a fucking great experience doing that as my first pride march thing of any sort in my life
• looking forward to having a week off work soon to switch off and regroup myself a bit
• another open for inspection tomorrow late morning - fingers crossed *the one* turns up, falls in love and puts in a decent offer - let's get this shit sorted! :-)
• currently singing - which is always an AWESOME thing (for those who haven't read about how i accidentally learned how to sing - check it out http://bigbluebearsbrain.blogspot.com.au/2014/03/i-started-to-sing-because-i-thought-i.html )

[exposure (original mix) - gareth emery]

yeah i think that'll be enough for now - no use anticipating the good stuff - wait until it happens then report back here!!

who knows, i might have stuff to blogger about tonight after dinner - don't ply me blind bears! :-) i have to drive in the morning lol

love you all - and i am sexy - and i ROCK!